She told me it was okay to cry
And so I did.
And she listened.
She listened to every crack in my voice that needed to be fixed
She listened to the quiver of my lip as all my fears erupted
And she listened to the heartbeat in my tears, bleeding down my cheeks
I never felt true peace until that moment
That moment where hugs and kisses absorbed me and made me feel alive again
Made me feel loved by someone
Made me feel that it was okay to cry
And he told me it was okay to make my own decisions
That I was an adult now
And that’s when I felt freedom
Because no one ever talks to me like that
No one ever bothers to look into my face
And see how much I’m hiding
Beneath smiles and laugh lines
But he did
He saw right through and heard a scream
While everyone else hear a faded whisper
I told them I could no longer handle the pressure
Pulsing through my bloodstream
I remember shaking and thinking I was
Breaking into shattered pieces right there on their floor
But then…
Then they told me I could stand
That I had strength and control over every situation and solution and conclusion in my life
That’s when I felt freedom
And that’s when I felt peace
And that’s when I discovered
It was okay to cry.
