Who we really are

How dare you see yourself as righteous. Your face is not near flawless. Your lips do not attract me and they have no right to highlight my answers as wrong
I realize my faults
I know my weaknesses and you have no clue of what I've been going through
You think you're so perfect
Always Right
So Wise
It makes me Gag
Why can't you ever lend me a thought
One simple acknowledgement?
I can see the color beneath pale pink
Don't act supernatural
We're equivalents.
Or did I not get the memo that God favored the proud?
Sure, you have nice thoughts, great ideals, dazing words
But I'm not gonna kneel to you
You have no right to push all of that on me when you haven't even read my whole story or even tried to look into my soft, dark eyes and see what's truly going on
You're the cause
You're the confusion!
You're the problem here and how dare you deny that
If any of the quick gazes and the romantic phrases were just coincidence, I have no sense. I'm the chaser, but you know how you said the first word and sent the
first kiss
So was I supposed to see that as false and understand corrupted logic? If that's what you thought, then you're an idiot.
Have you ever listened to me talk?
Heard me sing,
Pray,
Accuse,
Question,
Long for
My God?
No.
That's personal.
Those walks and those honesties are Ours.
So don't act like you know me
And judge my faith when not once did you seek my heart's ground. We are not that different from each other and
We all fall
So check the facts
And never play me again.

Waiting in a Fairytale

I know to you it's nothing big
To lead me on, then loosen grips
To send me love and soothe my soul
While knowing nothing else shall grow
I know of course you set them high
Those expectations that I climb
To reach the top and take your hand
A promise bound in fiction lands
In foreign sights and fairy tales
Where princes know when love sets sail
And follows 'long as time ticks on
So fast the travel when hearts be fond

I sit and wait
I love, then hate
Frustration lurks as days go late
But hope remains in later dates
Confusion perks. I bite the bait

And only then do minds come clear
Yet anger shows through patient tears
Forced to linger, pushed in fear
That you will never lend thy ear
You will never bend to hear

Other sides can win the race
Other dragons slow the pace
And princess dreams do not replace
The faith you have to see my face
In glass reflection back at thee
Translucent eyes that see through me

Veils so quick can turn straight black
Can eat inside the love that lacks
To dig a deeper hole within
And run the cold, hard, broken track
Exposing whirlpools of my sin.

Yet it is yours as well, I cry!
I weep and mourn a withered sigh
You led me into thoughts amiss!
You led me to that splitting kiss!
That even if did not exist
I felt it on my aching lips
That yearn to whisper truths to you
And tell you how my dreams came true
How everytime I look into
Your smile, your eyes, I find the clues
Of where to turn inside this maze
That otherwise would last for days

'Go right! It's Right!' your eyes do say
This God beneath the tower stays
He'll rescue me when it is safe
For both of us, for both our faiths
Ring true as silence stutters soft
This chamber then, shall see me off.
The dragon will have long since passed
Resulting from the sword's deep slash
To banish all my flaming doubts
That kept me from His beauty mount
I realize now the faith I lost
When something else clinged to my cost
It's over with and now I breathe
A soothing hale you can believe

I am clean, i've been renewed
I have prayed and He's pursued
My heart that never was before
Belonging to the One adored
The One who built my very core
And now I see how He comes first
He fed my aches and drenched my thirst
Supplying all the needs for me
Before all else, like my dear sea

I love you Lord, please hear these cries
That beg for you to lift mine eyes
And focus on what's in Your plans
Not the love in foreign lands
Unless of course, they are to be
The plots you have in store for me

Dear Sea

O Dear Sea,

Sweet and subtle through endless days
This stage that we’re in, I’m eager and dazed
Your gaze
Your wit
Your selfless ways
I’m timid
I’m nervous
My mind in a haze
But while I sit waiting, I’ll search for soft hints
The ones you supply bring a grin once they’re sent
The lyrics sing calls and I’m drinking them down
Such phrases, such crazes, such mazes surround

It’s a challenge for me
To bring forth a glance
To alter free movement
To a stiff, steady stance
That awkwardly ponders the thoughts in my mind
The questions of time
When our dreams are one rhyme

Like stars in the sky
Strive to line with the sun
Signs the world’s ending
But signs we’ve begun
Can you see pure confusion? Do you mirror my doubts?Could delusions elude you from drowning them out?

Oh, please deny this and say it’s not so
Say you’re engrossed and you’ll, not yet, let go
With all that I know, I pray and I wish
To one day exceed at your check off list
Numbers grow large and the lines are quite long
With patience, I’ll gently lead you along
To see past the doubts
To see I am strong

With others it’s different. Connections are scarce
We’re shallow, on surface, and threads are too coarse
Such contrast I know
For the seeds we plant grow!
They actually rise to the questions I throw

I’m impressed
I’m matched up
I’m on quest for your votes
Not scribbles in margins for me to decode
‘Cause sweet gentle smiles control me
Enroll me
Along with my heartthrobs
Where outcasts patrol me

No need for these fears
This choice is from me
No need for lost tears
Oh hear me, Dear Sea