Waiting in a Fairytale

I know to you it's nothing big
To lead me on, then loosen grips
To send me love and soothe my soul
While knowing nothing else shall grow
I know of course you set them high
Those expectations that I climb
To reach the top and take your hand
A promise bound in fiction lands
In foreign sights and fairy tales
Where princes know when love sets sail
And follows 'long as time ticks on
So fast the travel when hearts be fond

I sit and wait
I love, then hate
Frustration lurks as days go late
But hope remains in later dates
Confusion perks. I bite the bait

And only then do minds come clear
Yet anger shows through patient tears
Forced to linger, pushed in fear
That you will never lend thy ear
You will never bend to hear

Other sides can win the race
Other dragons slow the pace
And princess dreams do not replace
The faith you have to see my face
In glass reflection back at thee
Translucent eyes that see through me

Veils so quick can turn straight black
Can eat inside the love that lacks
To dig a deeper hole within
And run the cold, hard, broken track
Exposing whirlpools of my sin.

Yet it is yours as well, I cry!
I weep and mourn a withered sigh
You led me into thoughts amiss!
You led me to that splitting kiss!
That even if did not exist
I felt it on my aching lips
That yearn to whisper truths to you
And tell you how my dreams came true
How everytime I look into
Your smile, your eyes, I find the clues
Of where to turn inside this maze
That otherwise would last for days

'Go right! It's Right!' your eyes do say
This God beneath the tower stays
He'll rescue me when it is safe
For both of us, for both our faiths
Ring true as silence stutters soft
This chamber then, shall see me off.
The dragon will have long since passed
Resulting from the sword's deep slash
To banish all my flaming doubts
That kept me from His beauty mount
I realize now the faith I lost
When something else clinged to my cost
It's over with and now I breathe
A soothing hale you can believe

I am clean, i've been renewed
I have prayed and He's pursued
My heart that never was before
Belonging to the One adored
The One who built my very core
And now I see how He comes first
He fed my aches and drenched my thirst
Supplying all the needs for me
Before all else, like my dear sea

I love you Lord, please hear these cries
That beg for you to lift mine eyes
And focus on what's in Your plans
Not the love in foreign lands
Unless of course, they are to be
The plots you have in store for me