I don't know why my heart keeps racing
I can't control my legs from pacing
And in my mind these thoughts are chasing
Every word, silence and confusing reaction
My heart is in fractions
But so whole with a gift and faith in perfection
I just can't understand
Or see where I'm headed
Or with whom I'm contending
Why bother anymore
Or why soothe another sore
Sin is crouching at the door
I can't take this anymore
Patience is my enemy
Envy is the death I see
Breaking is your shell to me
But still so far we have to go until the end, until we know
If she is there to catch your tears
If I am another, playing in fear
It's pathetic, I know, but I watched you go
Taking all there was to have
Sneaking in to make her breath exhale
Another odd eyebrow
I saw it. She saw it. We all witnessed it, but I'm not sure if I'm really the focus here
And guess what?
It's not selfishness. It's truthfulness.
I promised this.
You opened it.
It's all silly swift shaking
I'm sorry I'm not following the words laid out in front of me
I'm failing, but i've tried
Since I have not cried yet
The stone is not stuck set
But I've placed my long bet
Now I'm reflecting on her gazes, her laughs.
The effects. All the deflecting and rejecting taking place
But I'll clear up this face
And watch it all pass by
With one more simple sigh
Until I see them fly
And crying for a break
For all these thoughts you have inside,
ReplyDeleteIm sorry, I do not wish to see you in pain.
for it causes me the same.
everything you said,
it comes to me as a shock.
I love YOU thats all I can say.
You may think somethings
they may not be true
for me its something new.
For all these thoughts you have inside.
I see them clearly.
For it is me and I love YOU.
I do not wish to cause you pain
for if I could I would take it away.
maybe it is time for he and I to say goodbye.
for to me that is the reason
and I am sorry if my smiles come to easy.
For all these thoughts you have inside.
I wish you could see what I see.
We are similar he and I in a way.
not by much but I can see it a little.
I see where he comes from.
but I see you more clearly
I do not wish to cause you pain
I LOVE YOU thats all i can say.
No, dear friend. It is not you
ReplyDeleteThere is no wrong in what you do
There is no fault in what you said
Nor in your mind, a mark of red
I love you more than you do know
My doubts are silly and should not grow
I wish you not to say goodbye
You've formed a bond, a sacred tie
These things I think, they must be false
Yet I am unclear about the hard-rock gloss
Don't you say You're sorry, friend
I know these thoughts soon shall end
It's like a person cut in two
One side red, the other blue
And I can't read the thoughts held close
'Tis confusion overdose