Am I

Am I too naive to believe this could last
Am I just a coward, afraid to look back?
This laughter, these smiles, will die with his name
And my heart is too fragile to deal with that pain
Yet I'm holding each moment so close to my heart
Denying he'd ever throw the first dart

And what about me?
Maybe I'll be the one
To shatter each promise
With lies I've begun
Maybe I'll be the cheater
The one who steals all
I'll lead him up higher to watch his heart fall

But with God as our refuge
I pray we'll stay strong
I'll live for today as we walk on along
These thoughts need to silence themselves for today
They're making me weak and clouding my way
To tomorrow

He'll follow

For now, for this week

And I'll dream of myself softly kissing his cheek
A betrayal?
The vile
Thoughts in our minds slowly clicking each dial
to silence the night
Of the loud pounding heartbeats that scream out in fright.

I Wish You Were Here

I wish you were here next to me
To hold me close, so tenderly
And whisper in my ear, those three
Words that make me grin with glee

And then my eyes could turn to you
My cheeks would burn a rosy hue
Slowly I would fall into
The gaze you hold of honest truth

You'd hug me tight. I'd feel secure
With you nearby, my life's so sure
Your hand through my hair brings my focus to blur
While your scent in the air makes emotions 'come stirred


And once the time is just right...
Once the moment is there
Your face will inch forward
As my lips taste the dare

We'll silently kiss with our patient eyes closed
Praying just once for time to be slow.

Adoration

With eyes, I traced your silent steps
Unseen on stone, so clean
Untrodden ground, that I have found
Beneath Thy presence in my dreams

For often I feel left alone
I'm lost under the cross
I drown into a black abyss
I limp on frozen frost

Yet all the while, You are there
You're on my heart each morn
In nature's silent breath, I cry
Each promise, broken, left unsworn

When I am drawn so close to You
In ocean's sandy path
Your footprints cover mine, so small
To place me in the grass

And bring me back to focused vision

Humble, honest, whole contrition
You're all I need
Be this, my plea:
To fall in true submission.