Am I

Am I too naive to believe this could last
Am I just a coward, afraid to look back?
This laughter, these smiles, will die with his name
And my heart is too fragile to deal with that pain
Yet I'm holding each moment so close to my heart
Denying he'd ever throw the first dart

And what about me?
Maybe I'll be the one
To shatter each promise
With lies I've begun
Maybe I'll be the cheater
The one who steals all
I'll lead him up higher to watch his heart fall

But with God as our refuge
I pray we'll stay strong
I'll live for today as we walk on along
These thoughts need to silence themselves for today
They're making me weak and clouding my way
To tomorrow

He'll follow

For now, for this week

And I'll dream of myself softly kissing his cheek
A betrayal?
The vile
Thoughts in our minds slowly clicking each dial
to silence the night
Of the loud pounding heartbeats that scream out in fright.