Name

i write the name on paper
look at it.
fold it.
crumple it.
forget it
burning in my pocket
screaming out its being
showing me a face
showing me a lie.

so i look for a fire
i search for a flame
burn it
burn it
burn it, it says
even the name knows it must not exist

i need

to burn it
sprinkle the name in ashes
letting them fly away from me
letting its existence fade
kill its memory
strangle it away from my dripping eyes

i cannot hear the whispers anymore
i cannot see the glares
i cannot taste the salty tears
i cannot touch the flame now

it's gone
it's gone
it's burnt
please burn
please go
please leave
please die

i'm free