Scarred

Inside myself, I go again
Inside myself, I sleep
Where no one dare intrude again
Or watch me as I weep
I'm breaking from the crowd again
I envy all I see
The people in my emptiness
Excluding all of me

The days go on in soundless cries
I sink in sand, alone
Cutting through my skin, I find
I've lost my own Divine
I've lost the ones I truly know
I'm scared I'm on my own
I'm scared that I'll be left behind
By all who come and go.

If you could only see the pain
The broken, scarred, red skin
The circle of my eyes so dark
That mirror all my sins

You'd simply laugh an empty sigh
You'd breathe in night's clean air
For you have lost the will to care
But lately, so have I.

It's nice to not remember you
With razors by my side
It's nice to sleep away the sun
With pills that run and hide
Through veins, I claim my own demise
You could have let me in
But now I choose to leave before
You cut me
Once again.