Bittersweet Situation

I am not depressed
I am not distressed
I am not overwhelmed with loneliness
But I need not lie
And say I don't cry
When I think of it all and wonder why.


I feel out of place
When I see your face
Around those of whom I'm at an arms race
But when we're alone
I feel right at home
Why do we exchange such different tones?


I will move along
And make sure you're wrong
I know that I have to keep being strong
I have elation
This is creation
Of my new bittersweet situation.


I'm ready for change
I know that sounds strange
My thoughts have switched, flipped, and the rearranged
These eyes do hold tears
But I hide my fears
When you are with them together and near.


Time is ticking on
Soon I will be gone
I'm going to wake to a brand new dawn
I won't give in to
The feelings within
I know there is only one way to win.


I am excited
I am delighted
I am also afraid and very frightened
I have elation
This is creation
Of my new bittersweet situation.