Dear God

Dear God,
Give me patience
To wait out for all ahead
And let meLet it be
Let them fall right into place
The missing puzzle pieces you hold
And the ending written in your mind
Place them in my heart
I'm done with her anger
I'm over this sadness
I never wanted him for me
Just a him to be
Now I'm dwelling
Always unsure
Insecure with my body
Hating the truth
He found her
She found him
Now that ring will be on her finger
And never again will I have him In my imaginary cage
Eating marshmallowsIt's beautiful
It's amazing
How everything I've dreamed about is being played out right before my eyes
So how long does my smile have to show?
How long until it's authentic and real and
BURSTING?
I'm pathetic, I know
Just eager
And once it is all here in my arms, I'll miss all I have now
Time is so tricky
The moments of freedom are taken away
From choices
Virtual choices
Virtual lives
Electronic devices
I realize that
And I still sit frozen underneath the gorgeous skies
Blazing sun
Natural
Organic
Life
Where are the children who run, skip, and dance?
Where are the cafe art models who observe writers who are focused and concentrated
And they share the same thoughts
And they share the same views
And he's just so wonderful that she thinks, 'GOD, how could this be happening to ME?'
And then there's those artificial flavors
Going to the beaches, the ones who try and play soccer
Even
though
they
suck
And still, I try to love them all
But where'd all the good people go?
And where is he now?
Give me patience
Amen